hard time getting a sentence out

I'm in Crystal Lake where I grew up. It's humid and too quiet. I can see why I went crazy here.

In Chicago everyone is crazy. In Crystal Lake, everyone is crazy too but they pretend like they are normal. That is why it's so creepy here.

I feel like all the connections and frienships I have made are hanging by a thread. This is my craziness talking, not the way things really are. Just feeling really raw, tender. Like a piece of meat.