afternoon coffee with jeremy

well hi there. it is 60 degrees! what a treat.

i am listening to a mix i got from a friend for my birthday called "30 is good!" uk dance music. i can't listen to "confessions on a dancefloor" all the time. i have my window all the way open and all my lights on. trying to fend off any drop of seasonal affectiveness disorder that i may or may not have. my mom bought me a full spectrum light bulb. it does work- its a nice bright white, not a yellow "night, mother" color.

"night, mother" is a film starring sissy spacek where she kills herself. kara and i use this term to describe that icky yellow just before dusk lighting-- the venetian blind shadows across a bedspread on an autumn afternoon that makes you want to slit your wrists. you know. it was also a play and is a popular audition piece for actors. i thought it would be great to do the play where kara plays the anne bancroft part and i play the sissy spacek, kara wasn't all that interested. then i heard that amy sedaris did the play- not as a comedy, just straight- which in itself is hilarious! even though amy sedaris stole my idea- i still would like to do it. the rights wouldn't be that expensive.

now im all depressed talking about "night, mother."

i have been watching "american idol." like most of america, i love the auditions, but when it gets serious i lose interest. paula abdul seems like she has her shit together. i have some weird crush on simon cowell. it's the accent- not the thin, form fitting sweaters.

i sent a letter to the supposed distributor of the madonna's documentary. they had a spot where it said if you were a tv executive you could request a screener copy. this is what "Bob" said.

Dear Jeremy:

Thank you for your interest.

Assuming this is for your personal use, there are no screeners available. A DVD may be available in the future.
Best regards,

Bob

I have it recorded from VH1 Classic but it has commercials and it's very annoying. The commercials, not Madonna.

I am incredibly lonely and incredibly bored. The email from "Bob" is one of the few emails I have recieved from an actual person. My own fault, I suppose. School starting will be good. The loneliness and lack of activity is the trigger for the built in depression that I have. I'm getting by.

on a lighter note, i did see the unedited version of colin farrel's new "movie". how can i put it delicately? i was very impressed with the "equipment" used in the video. but the set and the story left much to be desired. the narrative structure had no arc and while there was "rising action" there was no "climax."